He said, "Son, have you seen the world?Well, what would you say if I said that you could?Just carry this gun, you'll even get paid"I said, "That sounds pretty good"
Black leather boots, spit shined so brightThey cut off my hair but it looks alrightWe marched and we sangWe all became friends as we learned how to fight
A hero of war, yeah that's what I'll beAnd when I come home they'll be damn proud of meI'll carry this flag to the grave if I must'Cause it's flag that I love and a flag that I trust
I kicked in the door, I yelled my commandsThe children they cried but I got my manWe took him away, a bag over his faceFrom his family and his friends
They took off his clothes, they pissed in his handsI told them to stop but then I joined inWe beat him with guns and batonsNot just once but again and again
A hero of war, yeah that's what I'll beAnd when I come home they'll be damn proud of meI'll carry this flag to the grave if I must

'Cause it's flag that I love and a flag that I trust
She walked through bullets and hazeI asked her to stop, I begged her to stayBut she pressed onSo I lifted my gun and I fired away
And the shells jumped through the smokeAnd into the sand that the blood now had soakedShe collapsed with a flag in her handA flag white as snow
A hero of war is that what they seeJust medals and scars, so damn proud of meAnd I brought home that flag, now it gathers dustBut it's a flag that I love, it's the only flag I trust
He said, "Son, have you seen the world?Well, what would you say if I said that you could?"
PeaceMaya

Back again...

And wow, it's been a while.
And so so so SO much has happened, I don't know where to start.
For starters, my summer vacation is over. It started out really (REALLY) boring, to the point where I was practically dying to get back to college. But it ended up being one of the best vacations EVER. Around 32 members of my family gathered in Hyderabad in ONE HOUSE for four days and that part of the vacation was the most incredible. It was nice to see all my cousins again and have our usual discussions and teasing sprees :P. Towards the end, I was just DYING to stay at home :(.
But of course, college had to get in the way.
So yeah, now I'm back here and officially a Second year student.
But I am not as happy to be back as I thought I would be. Things have changed now. People have changed.
It's hard to adjust to everything all at once... But I'm trying my best. Sometimes it's just easy to go with the flow, yeah?
But moving back to hostel is like jumping into a whirlpool. I get sick of the bitching and the politics. And being back in college kinda makes me feel all alone :/. I mean, I have my friends here and everything....but still.
It's not home T_T.
And all our stuff was moved into another room. I HATE it when people move my things without asking me >.<. And even more when they don't take care of it. I mean, seriously?? I lost my bucket and all my toiletries and a towel. I found my first year portfolios...But not my models :(. And i'd spent so much time on them :'(.
And the worst part is we're getting work and deadlines to submit it all...but we're not even settled into our rooms yet and so have no place to work. The first week of college has been so hectic and I'm so so so SO exhausted X|.
It's just kinda depressing to be back in college. Thinking of all the work that we'll have to do. The holidays didn't seem long enough :/.
But then there's something to look forward to. Our juniors will be coming this year. Which means new friends and hopefully more fun in hostel :).
Right now, I guess I'm at that phase where I don't know who my friends are. Deciding whose opinions are worth my time and whose aren't. It's a little hard to decide whether I care or not about what people think. But sometimes that makes me feel like a jerk. Things might matter and things might not.
I just don't know anymore. 
Let's see what happens.
Peace
Maya
Song on my mind: Hero of War- Rise Against. The video made me cry. REALLY deep.