So...I've decided to change my blog background.
I really like the whole 'Fall Fun' background n hearder and all...but they're just not me. They say things like 'Elegant', 'Sophisticated' and 'Autumn'...but that's not me.
Me? I'm more a 'go-with-the-flow' person...laid-back, don't-care-ish, art-loving, childish (a lot of the time), super-sensitive at times, and as thick-skined as a rhinoceros otherwise, sentimental, adaptable and...a bit of a psycho. My mind wanders a LOT and sometimes, i walk into a room wth this fixed purpose in mind, a slight slip in focus distracts me, and the next moment, I'm standing there blankly, trying my best to remember why I'd walked into that room in the first place. My sister calls it early Alzheimers...:P...So i guess I'm a bit of a bubble-head:P
So i'm going to change ot to something that suits me more....too bad they don't have any 'chocaholic' or 'anime-lover' wallpapers...those would fit me to a T...;)

Change....now there's something that's not too easy to cope with...

But as the common saying goes, life goes on...so we either gotta live with it, or turn into a suicidal maniac (as you may have already guessed, the last part is my own modification;P)....Looking back at the way I used to be in the 8th grade, and how I am now, a year from college, makes me realise how much people (me specifically) can change...

I guess I have changed alot...and not completely for the better either. I'm the person my frieds want me to be around them...but at ome, there's a whole different Maya, with differet interests, thoughts and a WHOLE different attitude...

It's hard not to be influencedby people...and now that I think about it, I find that almost EVERYTHING I like or hate is not what Maya likes or hates...they're things she's LEARNT to like or hate, feelings that have been induced in her by the people around her...

I want the real Maya to shine out...but it's hard when you've lived in a shell for the last 3 years...

Looks like i got a lotta work to do...=S

Maya

Memories are forever

So you're going now.

I should've realised

that Nothing lasts forever....

Not even you.

I always thought

that you'd live forever...

Longer than me, at least.

How stupid of me

not to think of

the possibilities of you

leaving the world before me.

Now, as thoughts

of your inevitable death

float in my head,

Nothing else seems to matter anymore.

It still seems unreal,

you leaving before me.

But even if you do leave,

I will not grieve...

You may not have lasted forever,

But my memories of you will.

There should be a law against stupid physics professors being allowed to take four 40 minute sessions in one school day.....It's freakin' INHUMANE!!!
I think i'm suffering a brain shutdown....today has not been one of my better days>:(

It's been a while since i've been here...but i have a good excuse ( always do:P ). Exams have been ruining my life since the 4th of december and i could use a little r&r...I've got black circles under my eyes for crying out loud!!! And for a school-going teen, that is NOT good ( don't think there's anyone it is good for...)....

So to relax during these times of immense stress and strain (*groan* oh lord, physics has taken its toll...), i've found out that there are some really good ways to relax without overdoing it on the straining our eyes.

Music, my friends, is the answer. Sweet,sweet music is one way to forget (for a short but blissful study break of 10 or so minutes) that tomorrow, you may face doom at the evil hands of Dr.Organic chemistry and Prof.Projectile Motion...

So here's a list of songs I've found very calming and rejuvenating:-

1.Speed of Sound-Coldplay

2.Great spirits(from the animated movie, Brother Bear)-Phil Collins

3.I'm on my way(also from Brother Bear....hard to find the English version though...but the Japanese version does just as well:) )

4.How to save a life-The Fray

5.Take a bow-Rihanna

6.Black or white-Michael Jackson

7.Oh Shanthi Shanthi(from the tamil movie, Vaaranam Aayiram)-S.P.B Charan

8.Carry you home- James Blunt

9.It's you- Super Junior

10.21 guns-Greenday

11.Wake me up when September ends-Greenday

12.Don't believe in love-Dido

13.Life for rent-Dido

14.White Flag-Dido

15.I gotta feeling-Black eyed peas

16.Bulbula-Sunidhi Chauhan

17.Mere Sang-Sunidhi Chauhan

18.Hai Junoon-Sunidhi Chauhan

19.Taare Zameen par-Shankar Mahadevan

20.Maa-Shankar Mahadevan

21.Fireflies-Owl city and Adam Young

22.Lithium-Evanescence....etc.

Along with these were a bunch of songs by Kelly Clarkson, One Republic and Nickelback(some of my fave artists...)....

So, here's to all my fellow students who have exams coming up....hope y'all find this list helpful...(and just so you guys know...i totally sympathise with you guys...):)